The lifestyle entrepreneur posted a photo of her on a reclining couch with a long caption stating, “Iiiii don’t really know what to say here…just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter shit in real life. Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer. “
The mom-of-two went on to add that she feels “lost” and wants to find “my place again.”
“I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way!!” Teigen revealed.
She added that “Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks.”
“There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow,” Teigen added.
Expressing her love for fans, the cookbook author said she misses them, ” I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just…tired of being sick with myself all day.”
“I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno. I can’t do this silent s—t anymore!” she added.
Finishing the post, the TV host wrote, “If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u and goodbye I love u.”
The model was called out for past social media post about bullying accusations regarding Courtney Stodden, Lindsay Lohan, Farrah Abraham, and accusations from designer Michael Costello.
The Cravings author later penned an apology to Stodden for ” being an insecure, attention seeking troll.” Revealing, that “I am ashamed and completely embarrassed at my behavior but that is nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel.”
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